There is so much clothing in this dressing room there is barely room for us!
Thanks so much! :) I need to vent out even after balling my eyes out and venting to my mom and boyfriend and even poor Mrs Higgy. You’re really a great friend you know? :)
I should’ve stayed where I was. I was happier where I was. I missed my friends. But because of the one decision I’m miserable and sometimes I’m falling apart inside. I had him and really sweet friends. I kissed that away for nothing bliss nor better. The glitter washed away after the first week or so. Where I was the glitter was always there. I tried to mend things for the better but I didn’t because I annoyed. Every day I cry myself to sleep because I HATE school. Before I LOVED school because I would always see my ray of sunshine. I’m missing my ray of sunshine where I am. I’m alone in the crowded room I refuse to speak in. I try to laugh and smile and even after every attempt I end up crying and missing you. I never felt isolated when I was there. Now that I’m here I am isolated. My plans were to end school with a great group of friends. Its not like that anymore.
Its a shame to think that before I had splendid memories with some of the best girls and now its not like that. One of them was two faced and back stabbed me even after I asked her why she wouldn’t talk to me. Sure she goes along to make plans with my other friends considering the fact that one of the plans was MY idea. I feel heartless and cold ignoring the most sweetest girl, even after my mom commented saying she’s so sweet. But I feel like I should avoid contact with her for I’m afraid they will talk and comment about what I say, do, or ask. And lastly the other girl, I’ve tried to distance myself from her despite the fact that I have a few classes with her. Its hard to ignore her too. Its sad to think that after I tried to be great friend its not like that anymore. I tried to find someone a date and someone a boyfriend. I was 50% successful on one of those objectives. And now that 50% are enjoying themselves and are such a cute couple. The other 50% doesn’t deserve it after 5 yrs of friendship.
I know it might be to early to say, but I’m 110% positive that he’s the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I have never felt like this before towards anyone and I’m literally head over heels for him. Christian is different and unique. He has this adorable baby face that I just love seeing on him. Sure he might be dorky and funny, but I dig that. Because shoot, I love being dorky and funny! But the most attractive feature about him, is his heart. The core of his heart is as sweet as melted chocolate because he always manages to melt my heart into this huge love puddle :) He’s sweet and tender and has a soft side that I love about him. I always wanted the guy who was romantic yet adventurous and Christian was the ideal guy. Christian exceeded my wildest dreams and I’m proud to say, he’s my boyfriend and future husband.
I look like a female version of Hitler XD #Hitler #AllHailVanessa #LOL (Taken with Instagram)